An apology to myself

I’m sorry that I wasn’t there for you when you needed me. I’m sorry I didn’t stand up for you when something didn’t feel right. Those people had no right to use you and call it love.

I’m sorry for all the times I slept too much and didn’t eat enough but still expected you to go to 5 meetings 3 classes and study for those exams.

I’m sorry for all those times I stood in the mirror ridiculing thinking “If only I could change this” I hate that it took me so long to see the beauty inside and out.

I’m sorry for holding it all in, bringing you so close to the edge before deciding life was worth it and I needed help seeing that again.

I’m sorry for seeing our emotions as weak instead of strong. It takes a lot for a person to admit their pain and even more to work through it.

But we’re here now, and if you could forgive me I know we could work on this and make it better than ever.



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